This post is one in a series of posts called “Glimpses of God” which I am writing as part of the Write31Days blog challenge. You can find the other posts here: 31 Glimpses of God Blog Challenge (#write31days)
“What have I done? Why did I ever agree to this?”
These were the thoughts on constant loop in my head yesterday. It’s amazing how our attitudes can change in 24 hours, isn’t it? When I wrote my kick-off post, I was excited with all the possibilities of how God was going to reveal Himself to me over the next 31 days. Maybe He will stop the incessant rain tomorrow, maybe I’ll hear back from a publisher (with a “we’ve been waiting for your book forever! you are signed immediately!!!”), maybe He will part traffic like the Red Sea as I head to carline!
I mean if we are going to do this blog challenge let’s go big or go home right God?
Well, let’s just say none of those things happened! (You’re not too surprised are you?) What did happen was: it rained all day, I spent all day writing and still couldn’t finish a curriculum lesson that was due a week ago, I sat in a lot of traffic, I got grumpy (I mean 8 days of rain…really???), my kids were bouncing off the walls (did I mention its been raining for 8 days?) and my dog tracked mud in the house (again with the rain!).
My beautiful images of basking in the glow of holy and sacred moments washed away as quickly as the new dirt that was grated into our backyard last week.
“Um God, we talked about this remember. You said to write about seeing You each day, and I said, but what if I don’t see you one day? I was scared about not having something to write, yet I thought that would happen on day 16 or so not day 1!!! Seriously, what do I write about? I can’t see You in all this grey rainy grumpiness!”
“The LORD said, ‘Go out and stand on the mountain in the presence of the LORD, for I AM about to pass by.’ Then a great and powerful wind tore the mountains apart and shattered the rocks before the LORD, but the LORD was not in the wind. After the wind there was and earthquake, but the LORD was not in the earthquake. Then came a fire, but the LORD was not in the fire. After the fire came a gentle whisper….”
I had been looking for the “big reveals” all day, but what I missed was the gentle whisper of my quiet time that morning.
Earlier in the day God had revealed truth to my heart as I spent time with Him in His Word. He had brought a smile to my face when He provided a sweet answer to prayer through the words of 1 John 3:19-20.What I had initially dismissed as insignificant and not worth writing about, because it was just my “quiet time,” suddenly became the most beautiful sight of the day. I had received the priceless and precious gift of communicating with the KING of the universe, my Creator, who had His Words written down thousands of years ago and had them given to me in the form of my Bible.
I almost missed the most glorious glimpse of God because I was looking for the “big” flashy ones. But in hindsight, what can be bigger than His Word, God’s Word, in our human hands? His Word is powerful, it is alive, it is God Himself.
So, today I am not asking “What have I done?” Instead I am asking, “God, show me a glimpse of You in Your Word and any where else You choose to reveal Yourself, whether its big and flashy or quiet and gentle – You decide. I’ll just keep on looking.”
See you tomorrow!
Jen
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