I have been staring at a blank screen for three days. I wait for the words to come, but am met with silence. Doubts begin to creep in: Am I really a writer? Do I have anything else to say? Does anyone even care if I stop writing?
Hour after hour I try to formulate sentences of encouragement, hope, and inspiration, yet nothing comes.
I had been in such a good habit of writing, but then vacation came. Sweet, glorious, sand in my toes, family togetherness, turkey eating – vacation. However, vacation also meant a change in routine, which resulted in the end of my good writing habits. Without the steady stream of curriculum lessons or the regiment of school hours to adhere to, my quiet time was pushed to the side, my computer remained closed and my motivation curled up for a long winter’s nap.
I am so thankful for vacations, but I have yet to figure out a way to keep up with my Bible study and writing during vacation time. It is so easy for me to allow my circumstances to dictate my time with the Lord. This happens time and again. Apparently I need both an accountability buddy and supernatural intervention!
So I sit here wanting so badly to impart some deep spiritual truth to you, but instead I will quote the great minds behind Nike and simply say:
“Just do it!”
This is my motto for this week.
The words will come again. After all I had so many sweet moments and glimpses of God’s glory while on vacation.
I could write about seeing Him all around me while at the beach.
I could write of His faithfulness to generations of our family.
I could write of His mercy and how He showed Himself as my rock while I was in excruciating pain in the ER with a kidney stone. (Oh my word, you guys that was AWFUL!!!! Delivering a 9.5 lb baby was way better than that!)
I could speak of His grace as He stands with open arms ready to invite me back into our sweet quiet time together.
See! Already my “Just do it” motto is paying off.
I will keep writing, not because I think I have anything worthy to say, but because God is worthy of my praise.
I hope you are able to just do whatever God may be calling you to do today. After all it’s always that first step that is the hardest.
Much love,
Jen
(p.s. – if you have ever had a kidney stone, you have my upmost respect and most sincere sympathies. Still waiting for mine to pass, but by God’s grace am no longer in intense pain. Good times huh? 😉 )
Anonymous says
You end with a P.S. regarding a kidney stone and the next title we scroll to see reads, “Ouch…That One Hurt”. Could it be that your transitional skills are so good that you were able to predict the future?
Jen Bleakley says
Hahaha. I hadn’t noticed that before. Too funny! I guess I am that good 😉