Many times throughout the week of my dad’s surgery, God revealed Himself in such sweet ways.
Moments when I felt too weak and scared to pray, a friend would text that they were praying at that very moment.
When my mom, my aunt, and I felt like we would scream from the monotony of sitting for 8 hours in a waiting room, an old friend would walk in to sit with us.
When new and scary information was given, my Bible study ladies would email prayers to me.
When anxiety would grip my heart and turn my hands cold, I would feel a slight buzz in my right ear reminding me of the word Peace.
And while riding in the car feeling the weight of guilt over having to leave my dad, my eight year daughter handed me her “boogie board” with lyrics to a song she had just made up:
Jesus has it,
Jesus has got it.
He will help you in all your worries.
Let go of your fears,
let go of your worries.
Let go, let go, let go of your worries.
When you’re afraid, I’ll hold Your hand.
And with My power I’ll be with you till the end.
Oh, oh, oh
Your life, I hold in My hands.
So grateful today that Jesus does indeed have this entire situation in His hands and under His control. So thankful that His power is sustaining us. And so glad that as I hold more tightly to His hands I can begin to let go of my fear and worry.
Nothing about this is easy. I feel exhausted. (I think they call it stress fatigue.) My heart breaks for those who have been in a season of trial far longer than two weeks. Those whose loved ones are no longer here. Those whose suffering continues. Those who receive no answers.
Pain is painful (there’s a duh statement!) But it is true! There is nothing pleasant about pain. But there is still goodness to be found. Because in our pain, in our weakness-He is strong. He is sufficient. He is good. And He is God.
I long to reach through this screen and embrace every hurting aching heart today. While that is just a dream for me, it is a reality for Jesus. He stretches His arms to you. He turns His face to you. He draws close to you.
Run into His arms. Let Him hold you. Cry out to Him. Allow your tears to fall, knowing one day soon He will wipe them from your eyes. Cling to Him. Give it to Him. And trust that He’s got it.
Jesus has it,
Jesus has got it.
He will help you in all your worries.
Let go of your fears,
let go of your worries.
Let go, let go, let go of your worries.
When you’re afraid, I’ll hold Your hand.
And with My power I’ll be with you till the end.
Oh, oh, oh
Your life, I hold in My hands.
(If only I could write music to go with her lyrics!!!)